About a year and a half ago, I did my very first cleanse. I learned a tremendous amount about my relationship with food, and ended up pretty much eliminating gluten and dairy from my diet afterwards.
Two weeks ago, I started the Clean Diet cleanse once again. It was much easier this time, as I have incorporated many of the clean foods into my regular diet. But still, I had to get myself away from coffee and wine, my two biggest dietary obstacles. It really is no surprise that once I stopped drinking coffee and ending the day with a glass of wine, I started sleeping better and my moods leveled off. The interesting part for me is how excited I am to get BACK to these things that cause my body to be off balance! Why oh why do I return again and again?
My husband pretty much makes fun of me. I have given up coffee so many times, and each episode brings on 3 days with headaches and yicky feelings, and then I feel good. But oh, I love my coffee. How can I keep away from it this time?
I have become convinced that happiness, social situations and indulgence require coffee and wine (and wheat, and dairy). Commercialism has stolen my sleep and moods! I am aware, but am I strong enough to avoid? Just being aware of the impact these beverages (and foods) have on me is a step in the right direction. But here comes Memorial Day weekend, BBQ's and friends in town. Do I avoid the margaritas and wine (and dips and chips)? We have become so used to unhealthy food and beverages, that in order to eat a clean and healthy diet, you pretty much have to avoid all restaurants and neighborhood gatherings. I tend to bring along fruit, and it almost always gets eaten, but it is usually one choice in a vast assortment of not-so-healthy choices.
Feeling deprived is not a good way to live. Living with a clean diet can feel like deprivation, but it shouldn't. I am working on releasing that belief. My day can begin without coffee. I can end the day relaxing without wine. It is not deprivation, but a choice to feel good, sleep well, and be healthy. In many ways, it is my childhood diet. I lived without these beverages for the first 25 years of my life just fine, never felt deprived, and thrived. Now I need to give them up and step away from that silly idea of adultness, one that is harmful to me.
How about you? Do you have something in your diet you would feel deprived without having, even though you know it isn't good for your body?